Lately I’ve been feeling a little overwhelmed and slightly stressed about life. I’ve been thinking about all the things I need to do (or should stop doing), my personal ‘to do’ list has become a ‘to dread’ list and I’ve just been feeling different. Things that shouldn’t bother me, do and things that use to bring me joy, don’t. I began to reflect on a blog I wrote called Surely shortly before my first daughter was born. The Lord had strengthened me and enlarged my faith so much through that post, but today, I didn’t feel as strong as I did in that season.
Knowing that God is the same, I can admit the only difference between then and now must be hidden within me. Acknowledging that and realizing that these feelings and my perspective would take my life in a direction I did not intend to go, I’ve decided to make a very conscious decision to start my days earlier and fix my focus before life fixes it for me.
For me this process has been waking up before my daughters and having my first cup of coffee with Jesus. In the peaceful, quiet, stillness of my home I’ve been intentional about fixing my heart and mind heavenward before life gave me an opportunity to do otherwise.
This particular morning I decided to go back to the good and faithful Proverbs 31 woman. I love this piece of scripture because it embodies a woman that I do not yet know personally, yet my heart feels close to her. She inspires so many women and yet in her day to day duties, she probably had no idea anyone was watching her, let alone that people would be talking about her all this time later.
As I read, I began to write;
– She is valuable
– She lacks nothing
– She is consistent
– She is wise
– She is an investor
– She helps others
– She is considerate and compassionate
– She is a hard worker
– She is resourceful
– She is business savvy
– She is diligent
– She is prepared
– She faces life like a boss
– She gets her hands dirty
– She is brave
– She is wise
– She is well articulated
– She is fearless
– She is resourceful
– She likes beautiful things
– She brings honor to her husband
– She represents the Lord well
– She takes care of others
– She also takes care of herself
– She is confident
– She fills her life with things that have purpose
– She is authentic
– She is loved
– She is honored
– She is rewarded
– Because she fears the Lord, she fears nothing else.
When I came to the end of the passage I felt the Lord whisper to my heart ‘Look at all that she is. There is no mention of what she is not’.
For me this subtle whisper gave me hope, gave me peace and gave me permission to exhale. I am constantly fixated on growth and progress which means often times I can fixate on what I’m not, what I need to fix and where I’m lacking. Yet here I read scripture after scripture not about what she doesn’t do, but rather all about what she does do.
This passage focuses on the strengths, not shortcomings.
I’m reminded this morning to focus on what I can do, what I should do, who I am, who I will one day be, and not on everything I’m not.
This women wasn’t perfect, she couldn’t have been, none of us are but she focused on the right things at the right time and because of that, she was successful. She knew whom she served and because of that, she knew who she was. Did she face confusion? Insecurities? Doubt? I’m sure but unlike many of us, it’s likely that she faced it and moved on. Those things may have been a speed bump on her journey, but they surely would not become a road block. She got over it, she moved on, and she focuses on important things, fruitful things an d because of that, she is a hero to women who never even knew her.
Today I’m encouraged to face ‘it’ but to move on. I hope you are too.