12 days into the New Year and can you believe I haven’t actually written down any ‘New Year Resolutions’ until now? Sinful, right!?
I guess for me; my own personal New Year is my birthday!! And that’s when I sit down, plan out my own personal new year, set goals, deadlines, expectations and prayer petitions. My birthday is in May so by the time the actual New Year rolls around I feel like I’m just getting over the halfway point of my REAL new year and I’m not really ready (or willing) to make new plans! Instead, I usually stop and reflect on where I am, how I’ve been doing and if I’ll meet my goals by May.
This particular year however has been different for me and I find myself thinking about resolutions more then normal. I mean, what’s the big deal?? Why do we give this big glass ball so much power and place so much pressure on ourselves to perform when the clock hits midnight?
I really don’t know. I think it’s a combination of hope and expectation and the belief that at the start of something new (a new year, a new day, a new relationship) things can be different. This idea that life can drastically change and all your dreams can quickly become reality.
So this year after not really putting much effort into my own, I was driving on the highway (after another semi- crazy morning) for my regular double drop off routine just thinking;
‘Why do I keep doing this?’
‘Why must I torture myself?’
‘Day after day, week after week, month of after month, I just can’t seem to get this one thing together!’
You’re probably wondering at this point what I’m talking about, why do I do what?..
SNOOZE!! Why do I hit that horrid, chaos inducing, demon button called ‘the snooze button’.
Is the extra 9 minutes (x4) of restless, partial sleep really worth the rush? The frustration? The late start and hectic beginning to our day?
I would have to say, no, no it’s absolutely not.
During this internal contemplation, the Holy Spirit ever so graciously chimed in; Don’t you see what this is doing to you? You have no sense of urgency; you’ve become desensitized and complacent. It’s easy for you to put off for later what needs to be done now and it’s not isolated to your snooze button each morning either.
Can you say ‘shots fired?!’
WHOA! I wasn’t even asking you! (Ok, I’m so sorry Holy Spirit- I appreciate your love and correction towards me, I was just caught off guard)
But seriously- WHOA! I really wasn’t expecting that, at all. And as much as I felt the sting, it felt right; it felt like that correction fit my dysfunction.
I do snooze every- single- morning (literally). But I snooze much more than my alarm clock on a daily basis.
I snooze the dreams God has given me.
I snooze the plans He’s placed on my heart.
I snooze the purpose He’s given me.
I snooze the divine moments where He wants me to catch something, see something and I’m just ‘too tired’ for it.
I snooze those hard decisions I’m not ready to make.
I snooze the tough stuff that is easily over looked rather then addressed.
Gosh, I snooze a lot!!!
In that moment, I decided it’s time to stop the snooze. It’s time to arise, fully awake and ready at the right time. Not at my time, not when I’m ready but rather when the alarm goes off. When the Holy Spirit says NOW. When I feel the push, when I get that nudge, when there’s a little stir within me; that’s the time. Not 9 minutes or even 9 months later, the time is right in that moment.
I felt convicted that day because I realized how much I really snooze. Starting first thing in the morning. That’s literally how I start my day! That is the tone I set, the very first act of every new day is procrastination and procrastinator is the last word I want to be used when describing me or my life.
Those are the kind of words I want to describe me and guess what, none of them come from snoozing life away.
So there it goes; my one and only New Year resolution; stop the snooze. In every single way possible.
When the urge to sleep for five more minutes comes, I won’t fall for it.
When the Netflix prompts me to play another episode, I won’t sit for it.
When the Holy Spirit presses on my soul, I won’t ignore it.
I refuse to be a woman whose life can be described as lax or passive.
Change, success and all things worth something don’t come from a passive posture, they must be pursued. I promise stop the snooze and pursue Jesus, life, love and purpose with all that I have, in every single way possible. Will you join me? What have you been snoozing? It’s time to wake up, face the day, own your moment and pursue purpose with all that you have.
It’s time to stop the snooze.